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sam swagger.
13 April 2011 @ 09:04 pm
 This feeling is awful. I know that I'm better than picking up than picking up my phone, and dialing you. I'm stronger than she is, but what sucks is that she is one of my friends. Naturally, I feel like I need to make her feel like the way I'm feeling now, but I'm not going to stoop down to that level. I'm just going to cuddle up with my cat, like I used to do whenever I was mad at you. 
Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
Current Music: A Day To Remember - Have Faith In Me
sam swagger.
05 April 2011 @ 09:37 pm
 I'd never thought I would feel like this again after him. This feeling is amazing, and I hope this one lasts :)
sam swagger.
18 December 2010 @ 04:11 pm

Why did you lie? 
You promised me so much, and gave me so little.
I can't deny that I miss you, because I do. So much.
I wish you aren't the way you are.
I'm still not over the heartache.
I loved you. Never did I fuck you over.
You haven't changed one bit, sir. Stop saying you have.
Please don't come crawling back when she realizes it.
I know I will take you, please don't do that to me again.

sam swagger.
13 October 2010 @ 10:18 pm
 I feel safe on livejournal. I don't have any real-life friends on here, so I can post whatever I want, without them seeing it, unlike on tumblr.

I cried today for the first time in awhile. Well, there's this boy, who I'm completely in love with. I shouldn't be though, because he's the type of guy who talks the same way to every girl.  He's all I've been able to think about for the last 9 or 10 months, and I'm starting to hate it. He's the only guy I've been able to like for awhile. I need to find a way to get over him, but it seems impossible. My friends don't seem to understand. When we talk about boyfriends, they're just like, "We need to find you a guy...who's not him~." It's not that easy though. Nobody seems to understand what I've been going through. I don't need this guy in my life, but I want him in it more than anything. My mom found out about it, and thought it was stupid, and told me I'm not in love with him, and she told my grandma, who completely went off on me for thinking that I am. It sucks. I have no one to really talk to about, because everyone thinks I'm being dumb, and it hurts. I feel like I tell the person I normally go to for help, too much of my problems, and I don't want to make him uncomfortable or anything. I just need someone who understands, and could help.

Current Location: bed.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
sam swagger.
02 September 2010 @ 09:12 am
Uh...I'm in love with you...